Psalms 61;2b

When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I

Friday, February 27, 2009

Morgan's blog...

You must go to her blog and check it out!!! She has started a blog and she is just amazing...she cracks me up at the "teen" language that she ruff for rough...but anyway, it's just a blessing to see her growing in God and I am praying it always stays that way!
Here's the link...go check it out...

Thursday, February 26, 2009

I am doing ok...

Just wanted to thank everyone for their prayers and say that I am so undeserving of the Grace of God!!! I am doing "ok"... I am looking at it as starting afresh and trying to anticipate my new future. I am still not sure what God's plan is, but as long as he helps me on a minute by minute basis, I think I can make it...Thanks again for all your prayers. I will never forget all the kind words. I don't know why I had to go thru this, but if it is to help other people, then I want to suffer it for the glory of God. I have become so much closer to Christ thru all this. I don't think I have ever experienced His grace like I have thru this time.
Me and Morgan was standing in the kitchen last night talking about the situation and how she would get embarrassed when someone mentioned it...I think several of her teachers have asked her and she said she feels her face turning red and it is all she can do to not cry. I am so glad she is starting to open up and talk about one point I was very worried about her and her bitterness. She did tear up several times as we talked. Last night, Lukas had already went to bed and she and I were standing in the kitchen crying together. She is growing up and understanding so much. She is such an encouragement to me. She said that everytime she feels like crying she thinks of the song that says..."cheer up, my brother, live in the sunshine, we'll understand it all by and by..." God is so good!!!!


There is this 3rd grade teacher here at school and she was up teaching math at the board ...subtracting, borrowing, checking your answer, etc...when a student(boy) raised his hand...the teacher went ahead and called on him, assuming he didn't understand a particular step in subtraction...She called on him and he said "Reckon how long it takes a giraffe to vomit??"

Monday, February 23, 2009

God is so Good..

He has carried me thru the weekend. I have had a really good weekend with my children. They are so precious and I thank God everyday for them. They really amaze me and I can't believe I have got such good children..I surely don't deserve them...but here's what happened.
They both had to teach Sunday School for youth Sunday. As I already told you about Lukas' lesson, Morgan sat on the bed on Sunday morning and told me her lesson. She was gonna teach on the Armour of God. She had two thoughts. The first one was that the amour was tailor made for her...and my amour was tailor made for me...and she said "God knows where we are most vulnerable at and he makes our amour stronger in that area"....That was awesome!!!! I really was beaming with pride...then her second thought was about the shield of faith...she was gonna give a quote of Martin Luther King says Faith is taking the first step even when you cannot see the entire staircase...
Then she had another thought about the is the Word of God, right...well she was talking about how you used a sword and how in order to win a battle, you had to become familiar with it...and it takes practice to use it and keep your skills sharp...
Wow, what thoughts, right??? I was so impressed...
So how did it go? Well, they said Lukas got up in front of the men class and was looking everyone in the eye...not dropping his gaze and said..."how many of you like chocolate" and none of the men raised thier hand..and he said..."hmmph." He then later told me his thought was..."well, old men don't like chocolate, I did figure that out!!!" ROFLOL!!!!
Morgan was amazed at what all worked into her lesson..she said that she couldn't believe all the stuff she was able to say...I told her that was God filling her mouth and that was the way Preachers were dependant on God to tell them what to say...

So today at 3:30, I will be signing "the papers"...I dread it...I know some of you may say I am stupid, but this was not the plan I had for my life at all....but if God is letting it happen, then it is his plan...I have prayed all day and last night for him to have mercy on Tom and even me.... I am afraid of the wrath of God, but I couldn't stand it if something happened to him... I took a picture of my wedding band and ring...just so I would have a picture of it...of course all kinds of things go thru your head...memories, when he asked me to marry when we were married and he first put my band on my hand...he did live with me till death do us part...cause I feel as if my heart is actually dead today.
God, please hold your arms around me to keep me from crumbling...I am broken, but if I fall apart, we might not be able to find all the pieces.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Luke's message

The children found out that they had to teach a sunday school class for youth sunday. Lukas has to teach the men's class and Morgan has to teach the of course this panics them and they start immediately telling me about it when we get into the van after church Sunday night.
In the midst of that conversation, Morgan wants to share what she and Hunter "found" in the Bible while they were looking for a verse to put on the bullitin board in thier room. So she gets her Bible and starts to read from Matthew...about Divorce... Matthew chapter 5;32...But I say unto you, That whosoever shall put away his wife, saving for the cause of fornication, causeth her to commit adultery; and whosoever shall marry her that is divorced committeth adultery.
I really wanted to laugh...I don't know why...but I did tell her that I had not been perfect in my marriage to her Father and that God had forgiven me...What Tom does is up to him...then we got into the conversation of a "willful sin" and how there is no sacrifice for that and usually if you sin willfully, you will be punished by God. So...Lukas says..."Mom, it's kinda like if the devil and sin were a sugary sweet chocolatey piece of candy and on the other side you have a healthy 4 course meal that is God...9 times out of 10, you are gonna choose the piece of candy..."
Me and Morgan just looked at each other in awe...I mean, WOW...what an analogy!!! Morgan proceeded to tell him how this would be a great lesson for the men's he sat there and thought a bit...then he said, well, my teacher told me a story in 2nd grade...there was this boy who loved chocolate...he wished for everything that he put in his mouth to turn to this wasn't good since he had a habit of chewing on things....after his wish came true he had an important test to take in school...while he was taking the test, he stuck his pencil in his mouth and it turned to chocolate...this became a big burden for him and soon he was loosing friends and everything.
Now, I did quote him the verse that says there is pleasure in sin for a season and last night I had to show him where it was in the bible... now, if you think of sin like this, there is a really good lesson in this...we want the worldy stuff, we want the good things...but then if becomes a bother to us...and then it ruins our life....Lukas totally got was so awesome to see the thoughts just running thru his head...he was just talking a mile a minute about it...then he wanted to call and tell his daddy...
Another quick note....The janitor at school is a preacher and a Godly man...he met the kids the other day and hung around to talk to them a few minutes. He came back in my office the next day and said, "I saw something special in that boy of yours..." I don't know what it was, but he teared up and said, "I would be very careful...I wouldn't do anything to ruin his walk with God" (He does know the situation in my life right now...)
well, I feel like I am just jabbering...

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

kid quote...

I had a 1st grader come into my it is not unusual for him to come in my office complaining and he usually does it about 2-3 times a week...but he is the cutest, little boy, I always humor him...he is very mischievous and gets into trouble frequently, but I just love today, in he walks...
"Ms. Sherry...when I came in from outside, it hurt right here" (pointing to jaw)
"Oh no, sweetie, what happened" (I didn't see anything wrong...)
"Well, it feels like my brain is falling apart right here" (once again pointing to jaw)
Of course I take a penlight and look inside his mouth to make sure his brain wasn't falling out...
and it wasn't, sure enough...

But it was all I could do to keep a straight face...

I dread..

I really dread Valentine's Day...I need to spend it with my single girlfriends, right?? Tom and I never did anything special, but for a couple years in our early marriage, we always went and rented a cabin alone...but I need to keep the memories at bay, right??!!! For all my married friends, please remind your spouse how much you love him and how much he means to you. If you are not feeling it, then pray that God gives it back to you. I promise no matter what you are feeling today or tomorrow, you do not want it to dictate the rest of your life!!! I know many times in my marriage, I felt I could do without Tom; I felt like I would be better off without him...I didn't want to hug or didn't want to kiss him...and I would have to pray for God to help me...I had to pray for him to restore the love feelings...If you are married, it is because God put you together. YOUR VOWS WERE NOT MEANT TO BE BROKEN!!!! Don't let the devil have them or help break them. I have heard of numerous couples just in the past 2 weeks that have split up, or getting divorced...I mean, the devil is truly on a rampage...if he can get your home, then the children are easier to get...If he can get your children, he can probably get you to give up...Support one another, pray harder than you have ever prayed for your marriage...even if things are going well...cause you never know what tomorrow holds...I have said it here before that since Tom was a Pastor/Minister, I really thought that my marriage would never be destroyed...but little did I know... My Dad always said... it takes just one pinprick of sin and after awhile, it turns into a sore that destroys everything. I truly don't want anyone else in this world to go thru what I have went thru and if I can say anything to help anyone, I want to...I am praying for your marriage...whoever may be reading this, I am praying God protect your marriage.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Eye of the Storm

I am really trying to seek the will of God in all my endeavors...I think that Tom and I are going thru this for a reason...I don't know what it is but I do know that I can say that God has revealed so much to me...and really... I don't feel totally molded yet...I think there is much more for me to learn. My life is not gonna get any better yet...I feel like I am meant to learn this lesson and until I do, I am gonna endure. It is almost like I am in the eye of the storm.
For two days, I have been able to use my experience to help someone who is contemplating going thru divorce...and to be honest, you really can't empathize with someone unless you have went thru the same thing...Is this God's calling for me? What am I supposed to be doing with my life? What is left for me to learn....I have prayed for about 2 weeks now, Lord, show me what you want me to for now, I am just keeping my eyes and ears open...waiting on the Lord.

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Vote for my kids please..

I need everyone to go to this site and put in a comment the number of your kids picture is # can vote once per day...

If you cant get to it here, just go to this link
and click on enter blog...then go to contest for
Feb. and scroll all the way to the bottom and click on someone else's comment and it will have a blank comment form...thanks so much...and don't forget to do it every day...oh, and tell your buddies too..LOL
I have enough friends that I should be able to win this thing!!!!!